Monday, December 6, 2010

the things about friendship~

"One of the strange things about friendship
is that time together isn't canceled out by time apart.
One doesn't erase the other
or balance it on some invisible scale.
You can spend a few hours with someone
and they will change your life,
or you can spend a lifetime with a person
and remain unchanged."

Michael Robotham (The Night Ferry)

True friends you are..
our time apart has not been canceled out..
in my unplanned absence from this refuge of mine.
I have changed..
yet stayed the same in my time away...my time under the bell jar...

funny how hours turn into days turn into weeks..
turn into a month...
December..
and the winds and rain and snow have touched us all..
Thanksgiving has come and gone...
and Christmas and a New Year are on the horizon.
and I want to say..
I appreciate all of you ..
friends..
and leave you with a gift of friendship.

for you all..
enjoy your white time

Monday, November 15, 2010

crossing lines~

"... if you cross a line and nothing happens, 
the line loses meaning....
You keep drawing a line farther and farther away, 
crossing it every time....
You'd be surprised at how easy it is ....
To lose yourself--to get lost.
Or maybe you wouldn't be surprised.
Maybe some of you already know.

To those people, I can only say: I'm sorry."
— Lauren Oliver (Before I Fall) 
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there are lots of things...
I have learned along the way..
I had it written down differently..
the way the lines should cross...
trying to replicate some old hand smocking I had once done...
I kept crossing lines...
farther and farther I went...
but they kept losing meaning..
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so..rather than giving up..
and feeling I had lost my way...
I decided to look at it..
from a different perspective..
cross the lines...
and reconnect...
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and I found..
that this way...
not crossing so many lines..
and drawing them in..gave a form..
and the form...
had meaning...
I liked this shape...
that was what I had learned...
but you probably are not surprised~

and now it seems...
yet another pattern must be written..
but you knew this {smiles} 

Saturday, November 6, 2010

dreams and whims~

"I mostly lived in my dimension
Built up of fantasies and dreams,
Hardly a seeker of attention,
Yet, I preferred to act on whims."

T.K/Varenko
acting on whims~
I am..
hardly a seeker of attention...
I live in my dimension...
quietly enjoying the light~
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I fantasize...and dream...
for that is what keeps my days..
from veering off course...
those twists and turns of life... 
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and even though..
at times I am like a moth..
securely wrapped in its cocoon... 
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I have a built up dreams...
soft dreams of a tarn spotted amid a mountain glacier..
a pool of silvery water..
cool and pristine~~
the snow falls..
I close my eyes..
and even though I know..
this is pure whimsy...
I prefer it this way~

p.s.:I'll have another pattern ready soon~~~

Monday, October 25, 2010

designing....devising....sharing

"...As we surge up into the world, 
we try to devise a shape, a plan. 
There is dignity in this. 
Your whole life is a plot, a scheme, a diagram. 
It is a failed scheme but that's not the point. 
To plot is to affirm life, to seek shape and control..."

Don DeLillo 

We do this,
we all do,
we plot,devise,seek ways to shape...

our daily lives...
and there is dignity in this...
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but,that's not the point...
It was time..
for me,to diagram some shapes...
of my own...
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to design,create...
and by taking a little control ...
I do not think it failed...
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And to affirm this ..
I decided to share...to gift..
these thought out plans,these designs..
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in hopes..
that they would bring some pleasure to a life.
keeping your hands warm...
and maybe your heart as well.

my designs have been made available in PDF
for download by clicking on the links 
on the right sidebar....
a gift to you all...
Chinese Waves...(the gray ones here)
Greek Waffles...(the black ...)
and Gray Dawn(the twisted cable mitts)... from my previous posting
Enjoy~

Monday, October 11, 2010

Style

"Style is a very simple matter;
it is all rhythm.
Once you get that,
you can't use the wrong words.
But on the other hand here am I sitting after half the morning,
crammed with ideas, and visions, and so on,
and can't dislodge them, for lack of the right rhythm.
Now this is very profound, what rhythm is,
and goes far deeper than any words.
A sight, an emotion, creates this wave in the mind,
long before it makes words to fit it."

Virginia Woolf~
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so,I have the key...
it seems..to the style...
and I sit,crammed with ideas...
and visions...
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but the key is to put these ideas...
into a concrete form...
a shape...not just a vision...
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so I find the rhythm...
for the styles...
and to me...
this rhythm becomes profound...
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and the idea dislodges...
round and round...
the styles becomes concrete...
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the deep waves in my mind...
the sight...
the emotion...
all seem to fit...
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there are no wrong words...
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so,it seems that... 
it was a simple matter after all...
I have found my style...
 
(my personal designs to be written soon~ )

Saturday, October 2, 2010

secrets~

"I not only have my secrets, 
I am my secrets. 
And you are yours. 
Our secrets are human secrets, 
and our trusting each other enough 
to share them with each other has much to do 
with the secret of what it means to be human." 

Frederick Buechner
I have my secrets...
and I am my secrets....
secrets...
that are on their way..
secrets going across the sea...
human secrets,that I am trusting...
to share with you...
hoping she will not mind...
with love~
something..
to warm her hardworking...
talented..hands...
~white birch leaves
something with the colors...
of Autumn...
something I made up as I went along...
and I think...
that sharing this with you..
has much to do with what it means to be human...

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

the blues~

"We treat desire as a problem to be solved,
address what desire is for
and focus on that something
and how to acquire it
rather than on the nature
and the sensation of desire,
though often it is the desire between us
and the object of desire
that fills the space in between with the blue of longing."

 Rebecca Solnit (A Field Guide to Getting Lost)

and there was desire...
first from one..















and then another...
as they focused on the acquiring of that desire...





















I began addressing  the nature of this desire...
deciding they should be similar...















yet separate...
it seemed to me that this would solve many problems...
and the colors of that desire...
the sensation...blue...one warm...




















one cool...
to fill the spaces between the longing.


















problem solved?















not quite..
there was another desire...
you see...
and guess what the color of that longing would be?














(p.s....I am not liking Blogger's new set up...
it's giving me the blues...
anyone have any way to reduce these spaces??
that's my desire...
I have tried editing the HTML..without any luck...)
*clarification...spaces from text to photos...
I like the wide space of the page...
not the wide spacing in the posting~ ;))

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

meant to be broken~

"It's just that...I just think that some things
are meant to be broken.
Imperfect.
Chaotic.
It's the universe's way of providing contrast, you know?
There have to be a few holes in the road.
It's how life is."

Sarah Dessen (The Truth about Forever)


























I do think some things....
are meant to be broken...
imperfect....

























with holes in the road...
wandering grapevine...
Selene is...
finished...blocked....


























warm and cozy....
and  perfectly perfect to me...



providing the contrasts...
are good enough...
and the motion is not too chaotic .....


















and hoping you will bear with me...
as I search for the keys...
to unlock....
some things....that's the way life is,
you know?

Monday, August 30, 2010

a wrap is in order~

"In that moment,
when watches and clocks misbehave
and you feel a cold vapor wrap itself around your heart,
you unconsciously draw a line at the bottom of a long
column of numbers and come up with a sum
Perhaps it's one that fills you with contentment
and endows you with a level of courage and
an acceptance that you didn't know you possessed.
Or maybe not."

James Lee Burke (The Glass Rainbow)

It was time...time to accept...
and release the cold vapors that had wrapped about my heart...
when someone you love ...
is told something that will break all hearts...
it has become time to be courageous for them.
so..
I decided that a warm wrap...
perhaps something,
something that may fill one up with contentment...
was in order...

















so I unconsciously drew a line...
and came up with a sum...
9 days and 190 cm later...
I have Selene ...finished and ready to block...

















again I brought out the Cocoon ...
in a shade of gray...
one that has clouded my recent days...

























but there was light in the background...
that had endowed me with a sense of courage..
some for me...
and some for the other...
























there were long roads ahead
some that were ripped...
right from the pages of a good book...
and other roads that may be harder to travel...

















but long walks...
and memories....
















would surely bring us to a place to reflect...
a place of calm...
a sense of serenity ...
a place of acceptance..
or maybe not~

Saturday, July 31, 2010

happy/sad

"So, this is my life.
And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad
and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
Stephen Chbosky

It has been a sad time...
and a happy time....
and I am struggling daily to reason it out....

So...
my projects sit...
in the sun...
beautiful ideas..
and colors... and threads...

they sit and wait....
until things are sorted out...
until the sad and the happy merge once again....
into all happy~

I have a tendency to keep things...
hard things... jarred up...
I am letting a few things tumble out of that jar...
for now... in hopes that prayers will be answered....
August...time for blackberries~
everything is not black and white....
but how wonderful it would be...
if it was all blackberries and cream...............

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

~like a watermelon~

"But happiness is not always loud and bright and crowded.
Happiness ripens like a watermelon,
sweet and rosy on the inside
with only a thin top layer altogether free of small black pits.
And, like a watermelon,
the whole thing can be covered with a plain dark rind."

E.L.Konigsburg


It is July...
it is summer....
and happiness ripens with each sweet watermelon
                                                                                                  
 
 
















not too loud....
just bright enough...





















this watermelon was made...
for a perfect little girl..
who is as sweet and rosy on the inside... 

as she is on the outside...
and there is a thin layer...
altogether free of tiny black pits~ 

where there is a layer of natural sweetness...
Now.. really...
what could be better than not being loud...
or crowded...
and being able to savor the sweet taste of melon...
right down to the dark rind?